#im so sick of ghost roles

[vampiricgf]

ohmygodddd why does it take ten billion years to even get an initial response to an application like bitch if you need somebody that badly i would assume you'd be all over that shit every day

[emomanswhore]

I feel like... if you call ghost daddy in bed he'll go crazy

ghost with a daddy kink ? oh yeah… he definitely eats it up, when his prettiest princess calls him daddy in bed. <33

—❤︎︎ — DADDY’S HOME . . . ❞

SIMON GHOST RILEY X FEM!READER

✵. !! WC : 3.7k

✵. !! TAGS & CW : explicit content! (18+ mdni) - service/softdom!ghost (he’s a lil bit mean), cunnilingus, daddy kink, size kink/difference, praise/petname usage, subtle spit kink, squirting, thigh slapping, overstimulation, dumbification, pussydrunk!ghost (hes in LOVE with your pussy), orgasm denial, fingering, the mask stays ON.

✵. !! A/N : hihi babies ! just a lil treat for y’all and thank you for 700+ follows and all the love you’ve given for simon says ♡!! hope you enjoy this mini fic, lmk how we feeling about it !! <33 ps… i folded. im sat. i actually wanna call this man daddy so bad. 🧎‍♀️

In your mind, there was one word— one forsaken word that you refused to utter. A word that only the most sexually deprived would use.

A person with their morals in check, should never attempt to sexualize something that is meant as an innocent title and name. Usually reserved for an actual father, or someone fulfilling the role of a male caregiver.

Right.

A person with their morals in check.

Right. You totally weren’t projecting… and deeply shaming your own innermost yearning, to desperately call your boyfriend ‘daddy’ while he fucked you.

It definitely wasn’t a thing you could say you were proud to admit outloud. Nope, you would quite frankly rather be caught dead than have your questionable cravings exposed to the world.

But every single day, you swore to god that your boyfriend tried to purposely provoke you into using the absolutely forbidden word.

Simon always took care of you. Whether that’d be making sure you got to work safely, cooking you meals on days that you were too tired to be bothered, or even texting you throughout the day to make sure you were resting properly.

You know. You know that’s probably the absolute bare minimum, and what a boyfriend is supposed to do for you in a serious relationship. But you just couldn’t help that ache and flutter you got in your heart, that made you so weak for him.

He worked so hard every single day, busy and moving nonstop on less than four hours of full rest. Even when he had his most stressful and agonizingly long days at work, he still tried to reach out to you. It could be a single worded text message or a phone call that only lasted for five minutes.

No matter what or without question, Simon will do his absolute best to tend to you. It was truly unconditional love, devotion, and his unspoken rule to give you whatever you most desired.

And you feel sick— sick in the head for letting your insatiable lust take over your sense of morality. Putting his mostly wholesome catering ways, in the same category as what you needed to relieve that scorching, sore pounding in your core.

That was alright though, you could live off your little fantasies and scenarios you created in your mind. Always making yourself dizzy and soft headed, imagining a world where he would make love to you and refer to himself as ‘daddy’.

It would suit him so well. Your hulk of a man, who had to put a slight bend in his knees whenever he came through the doors of your home. His mellow, husky voice always gently rasping to you— almost never, ever raising it higher than an octave at you. The way he could spoil you absolutely rotten, only ever calling you by his own little terms of endearment.

Always putting you first when he fucked you. Even in times when it got rough or you two were experimenting with things on the more intense side, you always came first. Literally and physically, since Simon couldn't properly get off himself, without knowing you were completely satisfied.

Your aftercare would consist of cuddling, he’d coo the sweetest of praises as he handled your sore limbs.

“My sweet girl, look at how pretty she is. Did such a good job today, angel. I know baby, I'll take good care of you now. Such a pretty girl, aren't you?”

It’s perfectly fine.

You could keep all those things about him to yourself. Just let your brain work its magic, to create fantasies and fill the deep void of your scorching carnality. You always subconsciously needed that one little thing to make yourself come even harder. But you were a good, grateful girl for him and always let Simon know how well he treated your body.

It’s perfectly fine. You don’t need a daddy kink in your life, to make yourself feel better. You were so much better than that, and you’d never let Simon get the idea that you were some ill, perverted deviant.

It was all fine.

Until today, when he finally pulls the most forbidden word out your mouth— and satiates the bubbling, hot desire that has a heavy chokehold on your heart and soul.

You don’t know how things escalated so fast.

One minute, you get his text that he’s on his way home and he’ll see you soon.

Out of pure joy and excitement to finally see him again after three weeks, you start to get yourself ready for the evening by taking an extra long shower. Making sure you’ve lathered and exfoliated every inch of your body in vanilla scented body polish, with a hint of brown sugar and cocoa butter. It was always Simon’s favorite scent on you, and he’d seemed more clingy than usual whenever your sweet aroma hit his nose.

The next hour, you throw on a simple, yet cheeky little lingerie set.

A delicate floral embroidered baby blue bra, with its matching mini stringed thong panty. You couldn’t help but fall in love with it at first sight. The design is a lovely work of art, the milky color enhancing the glow of your soft skin— yet it’s so scandalous on your body.

You did purposely get a smaller size, but on top of that it was made of see through mesh material. Not a single doubt in your mind that if he looked close enough, Simon could make out the shape of your nipples through the bra. And between your legs? The outline of your folds were perfectly clear and transparent against the light color of your panties.

After spending another minute admiring yourself in the bathroom mirror and taking a few selfies of your enticing form, you slip on a fluffy cream colored robe and head to the kitchen. You wanted to get something in your stomach before Simon came home, so you decided to lightly snack on a slice of pomegranate fruit.

You don’t even make it to the fridge before you hear the sharp clicking of keys turning a door knob, and feel the cold gust of wind that comes with the front door being swung open.

A gasp and squeal flies out your mouth as you bounce up and down on your toes, the actual sight of your boyfriend trudging in through the doorway makes your heart swell and pound in your chest.

“Baby!” You practically skip on your feet towards him, unable to hide your excitement of his abrupt appearance, as he starts taking quick strides to meet you halfway.

You think with how fast Simon approaches towards you, and him not even bothering to take off his shoes at the front door, he must’ve been just as excited to see you.

When you two finally meet each other in the middle of the hallway, you give him a big, dazzling smile as you go to lean in to hug him.

Before you can get your arms around him, he places a large hand on the small of your back and pulls you in close to his chest. You gape up at him, your smile slowly melting down to a look of pure confusion. Knees already feeling wobbly at his close proximity, and the way he has to tilt his head down to look you in the eyes.

Your breath hitches in your throat, when he slowly drags his open palm up along the cotton material of your robe. Even through its thickness, you can feel the heat radiating off his hand that follows along the curve of your back. Sending tingles down your spine, when his hand eventually makes its way up to the soft nape of your neck.

You both stare at each other. Your eyes become hazy and unfocused, while his dark ones scan over your perfect little form. You hear him pull in a deep breath of air through his nose. Holding it in his chest for five seconds before letting it back out, while he drags his eyes up back onto yours.

“Been thinkin’ about you all day long, y’know that?” He mutters these words, yet somehow they’re loud enough to ring and echo in your eardrums. You pull your lips in your mouth, feeling your core thump in tune with the pitter patter of your heartbeat.

You practically whimper out loud, as he continues onto his sentence,

“ ‘S about time I came home. Think it’s only right to show my princess how much I really missed her, wouldn’t you agree, pretty baby ?”

That was the only warning you were given… for what your boyfriend truly had planned for you, once he finally got his hands on you. Everything after that moment, truly did escalate as if time were being fasted forward.

You knew he missed you. Without him vocally telling you how much he thought of you, his actions spoke much louder than his words.

He was so sloppy.

From the way he practically rips your robe off your trembling body, to pushing you down onto your shared mattress and diving face first into the warm heat of your clothed pussy.

He was truly like a dog in heat. Not even bothering to take his mask off completely from his head, and only lifts it enough to show you his parting lips as he comes face to face with the growing patch of wetness sticking in your panties.

“Look at my pretty lil’ lady,” he coos softly, hooking his thumb into the side of your soiled panties and pulling them to the side to expose your glistening cunt to his heavy eyes. “Missed me, haven’t you? Can’t imagine how tight ‘n upset you are, since I haven’t been givin’ you proper treatment lately.”

It always blew your mind when Simon literally talked to your pussy.

Speaking in soft murmurs and giving it the same delicate pet names that he gave you, the owner of it. As dumb as it probably sounded, you sometimes couldn’t help but feel that ugly swirl of jealousy when he practically treated it like it was an entire living and breathing person.

You don’t have time to mull over your childish feelings, letting out a squeak when he grabs both of your thighs and presses them back until your knees squish against your chest.

“Know you’re mad at me, little one” Another squeak sounds out your throat, as you feel him turn his head to the side of your thigh and he lets his teeth sink into the doughy flesh of your skin. He hums, sucking on the flesh before letting it go and pressing a soft kiss to the flaming bruise he leaves behind. “Gonna show you how much I’ve missed splittin’ you open on my tongue.”

He follows through with his words, putting his full attention back onto your pussy. Using his index and middle fingers to pry open the thick lips of your cunt, groaning when he sees your hole twitching and spasming over nothing. The scent of your nectar coating your thighs and leaking out your pussy, makes him feel even more high and drunk off your arousal.

You’re so messy already. And like the gentleman that he was, Simon always took the initiative to help clean up messes that you made.

Still keeping his fingers spread enough to keep your lips parted, he lolls his thick tongue out before swiping it on your slit. You mewl and flinch at the feeling of his warm tongue, but he grips the side of your thighs to keep you still. Simon continues licking up and down your cunt. Maintaining the same pattern of stroking his strong tongue, as if he were savoring a frozen delicacy that helplessly dripped down the side of its waffle cone.

Once he feels like he’s collected enough of your cum on his tongue, he pulls his tongue back into his mouth to let the taste of you sit heavy on his taste-buds.

Your toes curl and you let out a soft gasp, as you watch him hollow his cheeks, before he lets the sinful mixture of your cum and his spit fall right back into your twitching hole. Chuckling to himself as he watches the way his greedy girl swallows up the little treat he gave her.

“Taste so fuckin’ good, princess” This time he does actually talk to you, dragging his eyes up from your drenched pussy and onto your blearing, glossy ones.

“Always so good for me. Could eat you up every single day ‘n never get tired of it. Can’t believe I went so long without this, fuck.”

Simon starts to probe his tongue along your core, tracing the shape of it until he finally pushes inside you. Already feeling the tight caverns of your pussy ease up, and welcome the thickness of his tongue rubbing up against your gushing walls.

“S-Sim— oohhh,” You throw your head back, unable to finish your squealing when he pulls his tongue completely out of you, and decides to inflict his torture upon your little clit. First he flicks the tip of his tongue over it, then he lets his mouth completely envelop around your pearl. Pumping it a few times between his lips, before pulling off to run his tongue over the expanse of your pussy.

You weren’t going to last.

You were far too sensitive after not having him around to please you for three entire weeks. All you could do was sob and let it happen, letting out a cry before you feel a fat watery gush of cum shoot out your hole. Simon pays it absolutely no mind, only widening his mouth to catch every little drop you gifted him.

“That’s it. Such a sweetheart, you’re already spoiling me ‘n givin’ me a lil’ treat. ,” He feels the way your body starts to relax, already going into its state of after pleasure— but he isn't done. Far from done, actually. Hasn’t even been half of an hour yet, and your legs start shaking like a leaf in the wind.

“Ah, Ah,” Simon tuts, slapping his palm hard on your soaked inner thigh, making you jolt and buck your hips up. “C’mon baby, couldn’t have thought I was done with you. ‘S only been a few minutes, ‘n you’re tapping out already? Thought my baby missed me, hm?”

It hasn’t only been a few minutes. Even in your dazed and dizzy mind, you knew that he’d been feasting on your pussy for well over twenty minutes. You shake your head, bottom lip wobbling as you let out a soft sob.

“I di-did miss you, baby” You sniffle wetly, feeling him trace his thick fingers along your soaking heat. Shaking your head in protest as he slips in his middle and ring fingers, humming while you babble to him. “But I can’t ta— aaahh, t-take it anymore. ‘S too much, baby. No more.”

“Too much?” He starts to flex his fingers deep inside of you, curling them in slow motions to stimulate your special gummy spot, that has you sobbing hysterically.

“You haven’t had your fill yet, sweet girl. I can feel it. Y’see this?” Simon tries to retract his fingers from your cunt, but your walls instantly clamp down on him. “You’re not lettin’ me out. My little lady down here knows exactly what she wants. So c’mon princess, lay still ‘n let me spoil this pretty pussy rotten.”

Having absolutely zero regard for your whines and sobs, he continues his previous abuse on your poor little pussy.

Seconds, minutes, hours, decades— You can't even tell how long he stays between your thighs.

Simon uses both strong hands to keep your legs steady and trap you from squirming or running away. You can take it. You will take it. He knows how much you need this, humming at every broken little sob and wanton moan that comes screeching out your throat.

Your vision starts to blur while you stare up at the spinning ceiling. Saliva pooling in your mouth and making a puddle next to your temples, as you let it run down the side of your lips.

You’re going crazy.

So high off the overstimulation of his face buried deep in your leaking pussy, that you swear…. you swear, you can feel your brain getting mushy. So mushy that if you shook your head hard enough, it could probably come spilling out through your ears.

He’s speaking into your pussy, saying words and mumbling something out loud. But you can’t hear it. All you can hear is your heartbeat pulsing in your throat, and feel the way he shakes his face side to side, while his tongue is plugged in your cunt.

Feel the way his hands grip your thighs so tight, that the blunt tip of his nails dig deep into your skin. You can already imagine the bruising and crescent little puncture marks it’ll leave on your legs.

It’s all so sloppy. Your pleas and cries for mercy, getting lost in the little squeals of ‘yes!’ and ‘simon!’ you can’t help but let out. And he eats it up, kissing your heated pelvis while burying three fingers inside of you.

“There’s my good girl, y’sound so pretty” He goes back to focusing his attention on your sore clit, giving it an open mouthed kiss before he continues speaking to you.

“Wanna hear my girl tell me who’s making her feel good. Hm? Lemme hear it. Say who it is, that can make you sing your little heart out.”

You make some unintelligible garbles, and Simon chuckles at your quivering and hiccuping. He squeezes your thighs encouragingly and smacks the side of them twice.

“Big words, baby. You’re a big girl, so tell me… who’s making you feel good right now?”

“It’s…” You swallow thickly and sniffle, slowly losing your train of thought as he suctions his lips around your swollen pearl. “It’s— ohhh, ‘mmm my goddd. It’s you…”

You start to gather some of your discombobulated brain cells to form a complete sentence. Simon’s name sits on your tongue, and you’re ready to tell him, it’s him. Simon. It’s Simon.

Until he pulls his head back with your clit between his lips— taking it with him, and letting it go with a loud pop!

It’s not Simon.

“Oooohhh g-god. It’s you! ‘Mmmy goodddd… daddy, it’s you… it’s all you, daddy.”

He pauses.

Whipping his head up to see if he really just heard what he believes you just cried out. Tapping the side of your thigh, he tries to get your attention so you can focus on his voice.

“What was that, honey? Didn’t hear you, come back to me and say it again.”

You whimper and hiccup, tears run down the side of your face and you continue whining at him.

“ ‘S you, daddy. Need you so badly, pleasseee baby. ‘M-m so close. I need it.”

Unbelievable.

He lets go of your trembling thighs. Letting the weight of his body help keep them pressed against your chest, as he crawls from up below your stomach and hovers over your face. Simon’s face is covered in your arousal. His lips glisten, and a good portion of the mask is damp and sticks to his skin.

“One more time, honey. Y’said it’s ‘daddy’ ? Hm? It’s your daddy, that’s taking good care of this pretty pussy?”

Simon’s fingers trail back down between your legs, softly shushing you as you keen at the feeling of his digits sliding back inside of you. He stares down at you, practically seeing the little stars spinning in your eyes. You weren’t in your best state of mind right now, but he’ll be damned if you tried denying that word escaping out with your cries.

“Can’t come ‘till you let me know,” You give him big, sad eyes but he shakes his head at you. “Wanna come, right? Tell. Me. Say it again, _____.”

At the use of your real, full name you quickly snap back into reality. It was like a switch, your bubbly headspace falling apart and bursting open once he rasped your name.

You did it. You really did call him daddy. It was your most taboo, and forbidden word—

But fuck it.

Today, your daddy was finally home. And you needed him to take care of you, just like he always did.

“Daddy,” you mewl out, feeling another hot sensation shooting through your spine. It was coming. You were so close. “Daddy I n-need you. ‘S you Simon, so please, pleaasee let me cum.”

His nostrils flare before he’s smacking his lips down on yours. Licking inside of your mouth, and inhaling the little moans you let out from tasting yourself on his tongue.

“Not yet, pretty little baby. Daddy hasn’t had all his fun yet.” Simon pulls away from your lips for a moment, laughing softly at the way you try to chase after his mouth for more. He uses one hand to swiftly fumble with the buckle of his belt, making quick work of pulling down his cargo pants and boxers. Laughing again when he pulls his drenched fingers out your greedy little hole, that puts up a fight to keep him deep inside your cunt.

“Must’a been treating my lil’ lady real good,” You can feel the heat of his hard, thick cock pressing onto your pelvis. Already licking your lips and grabbing onto his flexing bicep for support. “Gotta keep showing my special girls how much their daddy loves ‘em.”

He uses a free hand to guide his length to your throbbing pussy, unable to help himself from slapping the head a few times against you. His cock makes a squishy plop plop when he makes contact with your sticky folds, and teases you with a rub on your raw, swollen clit.

“Want you to remember this, once I’m done with you.”

Simon feels your nails dig into the hard meat of his bicep, bracing yourself when he finally lets the head of his cock greet your warm, welcoming insides. Already feeling the way your pussy grips around him, and makes no plans of ever letting go.

“Want you to remember what’ll happen every single time, that daddy comes home to his pretty, little princess.”

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[shigayokagayama]

incomplete list of weird/interesting manga-anime discrepancies

-you know the bit where they break into the girls highschool in episode 2? yea thats chapter 56. spliced into the middle of chapter 4. its supposed to go before the bit with the ghost family as a lead up to the mogami arc with mob starting to consider evil spirits as just as much “people” as living humans are. all things considered its kind of weird how well it fits its anime placement

-ritsu in the manga gets introduced in the same chapter as teru. you dont see mobs family at all for the first few chapters. infact i dont think his parents appear until like. chapter 25????? every interaction you see between mob and any of his family is completely made up for the anime

-in the manga during the claw arc instead of reigen sending them away all the lackeys just stood there awkwardly during the fight w the scars fdnjksndkjgnd

-mogami arc got GUTTED my god. the part where the fake psychics tried to murder minori got removed, shinras role in the arc got reduced to basically nothing, they move mogamiland ritsu to a bridge like 50 feet away instead of having him walk right over mob, mob only gets beat up like twice, the cat lives, the boxcutter bit is totally removed, the fight with the spirits is made a lot more abstract and less graphic. like im glad this one took the hit instead of the separation arc bc i cant imagine that arc ever being effective as one episode but wow.

-putting the “mob finding his family dead” thing at the end of the episode instead of in the middle of a chapter where it originally was was an objectively hilarious move

-rip the scene of teru outsmarting all three claw guys and saying “say old man have you ever been tortured before” unfortunately all scenes of teru being competent are not plot relevant and must die. also teru can make shadow clones

-hey remember those weird satellite people in claw keeping the viewer updated on where all the characters were in that infinite arc?

-mob with a gun.

-mob getting briefly knocked out while fighting toichiro and dimple possessing him then getting kicked out was replaced w toichiro just throwing him out the window or somethhing???

-toichiro saying that he only kept the super five around as spare batteries and draining serizawas power getting cut was a personal affront to me

-every single emotion mob cycled through in the anime got a 100% meter. the kid was super emotionally unstable in that fight

-that old man whos house they went to whos wraith made everyone asleep that they exorcised? yea they anime team made that up. they never went to his house in the manga, he just went to spirits and such for a shoulder massage

-manga reigen got 0 money for helping the yokai dude. it wasnt on the table. also most of the stuff he was saying was lifted from a video game serizawa played which he pointed out. also serizawa thought getting arrested was a type of spell

-takenakas general meanness was significantly toned down manga takenaka was a huge bitch

-in general the alien arc was a lot funnier in the manga? like the scene where reigen crashes they had reached a dead end on an extremely narrow path and were driving in reverse while tome and takenaka were screaming at each other in the back and inukawa was 5 seconds from snapping and killing everyone in the car. these might be my favorite pages in the entire manga they as so fucking funny

-originally when tome said she wouldnt keep climbing reigen suggested mob carry her with telekinesis (which horrified her) and mob said he was too motion sick to use his powers (obvious lie) but could carry her instead which got her to get up

-mezato asking mob to sign a t shirt for the psycho helmet cult in exchange for relationship advice got cut

-i cry every day that the sequence of ???% waking up didnt get animated it set a very different tone than the anime did. the anime was like. slow build up of dread. the manga was immediately bone deep horror i was literally sitting in my room yelling “WHAT???” over and over again at my computer as i clicked through it

-shigeo and mob conversation cut down significantly, all the references to the body improvement club being mob making a new self rather than embracing who he really is and being scared that all the friends hes made wouldnt like the real him removed </3

-the scene where reigen takes his shoes off is made a lot less somber and depressing. it feels less like “oh he knows hes going to die” and more like. triumphant? in the anime

-100% shigeo kageyama is an anime addition they added specifically to ruin my “the first time we see mob 100% is to fight dimple and the last time is to stop himself from fighting dimple” observation

-anime teru generally seems like hes in a better place than manga teru? manga teru seems very melancholy and like he doesn’t really know what to do with his life or his place in the world (which seems to put shigeo off) but anime teru is like wanna go shopping ^_^ *sips tea happily*

-manga shigeo deliberately threw the cake directly in reigens face and my fury over them making this ambiguous will last until i am dead

[crushedsweets]

Do you have any hcs for how Clockwork and Jeff would act around each other?

yes!! ok so i think i covered their relationship a good bit on my blog (should be in my masterlist on my pinned post), but i can try to scramble more concepts rn

ok for starters theyre really mean. like 'why are you happy you look fucking ugly smiling like that' completely unwarranted. but its very much like older sibling taunting, but theyre both fighting for role of the older sibling LMAO

i can imagine nights of them at the barn, one of them sick to their stomach from the operator(or the various other infections and illnesses theyd collect) and way too ill to do anything. jeff is partial to bringing clocky a joint to ease the pain, clocky is partial to bringing jeff actual food/water to ease his. theyre def not the type to be affectionate or whatever but jeff would scramble to grab clockys long long hair if he realizes shes abt to throw up. then he'd be like 'jesus christ thats nasty'

theyll sit with an ipod or smth and go through a lot of music together too . . . just a lot of "figured youd like this song" or bringing eachother a CD they found and showing it off.

i could see clocky incorrectly thinking toby and jeff would get along, cuz theyre honestly pretty similar. so she'd get them to connect, and then it would go poorly. i think jeff and toby would TRY to kinda hide their distaste for eachother... sorta

like, toby would just be like 'hes fuckin weird' and jeff would be like 'why do you hang around such a loser' but they wouldnt be like "clocky if you so much as mention his name around me im going to go kill him" . until the nina situation unravels, in which case clockys distancing from jeff anyway

i think jeff and clocky would have a lot of convos about like...

theyre really in similar boats. both got infected with O/S syndrome, both slaughtered so many people under the effect, both feel the symptoms/trauma to this day - but they went down different paths. upon recovering from it, clocky made a life for herself, got a job, hobbies, friends, an apartment. jeff just...kept up with the violence and power trips. lives in an abandoned barn, only friends with a freak ghost kid, etc.

clocky isnt the type to beg but when she sees him years down the line, withering away, becoming worse and worse when she tried so hard to get better and encourage HIM to get better too . i could imagine some tears and pleading there. i dunno . he's kind of a lost cause, though

[laikinz]

LAIKA / NIMBUS white. 28yrs old. fagdyke. sick in the mind body & spirit. she/her but only if u dont see me as human. it/fae if ur in love with me.

im a dog im a wolf im a computer im a guy who is sometimes prophetic im a crazy sentient collective hivemind of weirdos im a ghost im spiritually a mess im off my meds aka deadbeat faggot. schizo loser. welcome to my diary <3

i don’t tag nsfw or drug use. follow at ur own risk. im probably rambling as u read this. 7 yrs off hard drugs but im an alcoholic so ive really come so far<3 we can be friends but only telepathically.

cool things i enjoy: sports [NHL NFL CFB], airplanes, mass effect, yard work, monkeys, minecraft. critical role (me, fjord & jester best throuple award), fat hairy males, robots, newport 100s, working out, carebears, bonfires, reading (not intellectually yk), dinosarur. leather. death. im a big orb (marble) guy.

[pidgefudge]

SO. i have listened to @gooboogy 's wonderful green album. and i wrote down my thoughts on each song. and now i am putting them here!!

"thoughts" being actually somewhat coherent comments that devolve into What Would This Be In A Video Game because this is me we're working with after all

and you reading this. yes you. go listen to it

verdant: oooough blorpy,,,, very cool i like. good beat it's quite foot tappable. also the name itself might be a new vocal stim. verdant. vvvverrrrrdant.

halls: much noises!! the instrumence in this scratch my brain in a good way. feels a bit like im 7 years old watchinf my brother play 2d mario stages and reimagining the music

agua: oooohh arpeggio action and a SICK beat. once again the Noises are lovely. big fan of all 3 so far but this one in particular methinks. however i have many more songs to go (!!)

doot doot: very fun i also like this one a lot :3 and coming to you from my one-track autistic mind: this album would be a fantastic game soundtrack

side note i know im writing less for some of these but thats bc im experiencing them in shapes and colors more than expressable words. trust me they're stirring the brain stew

going for a walk: i know the title is about a walk but im envisioning this as the soundtrack to a sort of road trip montage animation thing. specifically my road trip with family from san francisco to la. oh yes this ending is us finally getting to the hotel and me flopping onto the bed

forward: im liking the melody here a lot <33 this album is making me want to boot up lmms again and try my hand at original music,,, ive only ever attempted remixes (i tried to do aquarium park from sonic colors a few years ago and gave up but now i kinda wanna go back to it,,, i wonder if i was cooking) ok yes back to the actual song whoops this one is soo cool one of my faves so far

snag: i like these opening chords!! i dont know what you actually call them but the like. buildup parts?? you know?? those bits??? big fan OOH and a uh. build down (lol) bit too! also liking the sparkly chimey instrumence

blazen: OHHH YESSS this would be the theme for my favorite antagonist in the hypothetical game that i am apparently going to be referencing multiple times (dimentio and mr L came to mind immediately) absolutely jamming

beep boop: fuck yeah man it sure does OH SPOOKY NOTES OH OH COOL BEAT ASWELL i am in for a fun time this is. also the theme of my favorite antagonist. but the battle theme i think. oh hell yeah the orchestra hits. yes yes definitely battle theme. sorry for putting all these in a vgm context shfjdkfkssghf i just listen to a lot of it so thats how my brain parses instrumentals

hunt: strimgs :3 wohhh this is so cool. buzzy in a good way. golden brown triangles and other spiky shapes. that's kinda meaningless to anyone but me but. oh nice more Noises always love the Noises

overwhelm: theme for when i have a project due the next day and am swamped with other homework shdjdksfjdh

VERDANT!: once more with gusto!! loving the faster tempo. constellationy crystally instrument is particularly pleasing. oooughh so gooddddd

creepin': spacey!! im watching a crew set out in their little shuttle, oblivious to the horrors awaiting them on their station

envy: this is a boss fight that's emotionally heavy for the protagonists. perhaps fighting a former friend or mentor or team member

whomp whomp: quite a tricksy track!! some sort of haunted place,,,, maybe the place where the previous battle takes place. maybe it's actually a ghost (especially if the protagonist had some role in their death and feels crushing guilt) (bonus points if the ghost openly expresses resentment for the protag)

gromulous: the word ever. final boss' lair for sureee. yeah this song sure is gromulous. idk how else to describe it you hit the nail on the head

largemouth: oooh a bit silly but also cool guy. im thinking some sort of underground secret society/lab thing they have to infiltrate that's hiding a Sinister Secret (the big plot twist of the game) doesn't even have to physically be underground it could be a moon base situation. maybe i should just make this whole thing into a scifi space rpg

a way out: i can see this as the final boss music and as you get further in the fight it ramps up. i know i already assigned songs to the main antagonist but shhhhh. (or i can always pull a super paper mario in terms of antagonists)

under over: oh!! i love this one!! hometown theme. chill and familiar but still upbeat rather than sleepy. and it has a very strong nostalgia factor,,,,, in love with this song it might be my favorite. but there are still 3 more so!

float: this beginning is very cool im loving the vibe. dire dire docks but make it just after sunset and watch the ocean come alive with bioluminescent lights and fish raves. i guess it isnt a space game anymore. or maybe dream sequence beach episode?? WOAHHH OCEAN MAGICANT i might be cooking with this one Hold On. yesyesyes ok some sort of trip/dream where theyre shrunk down marinauts (whatever ocean prefix) as opposed to astronauts and exploring a cool coral reef/ocean floor area and talking to the sea life and woahhhhhh this would look gorgeous in pixel art. tbh this one could be in its own game considering how vivid the imagery is

outside: post-final-boss world returning to normal/person being rescued or uncorrupted/whatever magical thing happening. very fond of the bird chirps too <33 OH MUSIC BOX SOUNDS i also adore this one. i think the ending of this game is kinda bittersweet. we saved the world/person/whatever but At A Cost. this is sooooo pretty. would also transition well into credits

Green: and roll credits!! this would be the kind of credits theme i sway in my seat and contemplate the game to. the entire album is fantastic and these last few especially have been so lovely

[a-whispering-echo]

Heya!! Feel free to not answer or not consent to it, but I was wondering if I could use your Heathers!Dust AU for a big ol' story I'm working on? (The Dustverse)

And if yes, may I know about your Heathers!Dust AU? ( In the form of links or just random little tidbits of info )

. . . and also Pestilence!Dust if that's all goods

Obviously feel free to say no! Hope you have a wonderful week regardless :]

of course you can use them! i'd be flattered!

My heathers au is based on the musical - Heathers, where the mtt play the heathers, and Cross is Veronica; Dust plays Heather Chandler's role here.

basically, theyre just the mucical cast but they the utmv guys

In my head, its also an actor au, but you can totally ignore that for plot purposes ;)

Heather Chandler actually dies about halfway through the musical, murdered accidentally by Veronica and JD - or Cross and Nightmare here - so if you wanted Dust to be a ghost or alive, totally up to you!

Chandler's bossy, the leader of the Heathers, manipulative and unappolagetic - mean for the sake of being mean, really

His scarf takes the place of heathers scrunchie here, and when he died, Killer (H.Duke) takes it and wears it in to ‘take control’ if you will. Dust does Not Like That (™) 

This makes Horror (H.Mcnamara) really sad 

i have a *cough* Slime tutorial here if you were interested hehe

Im gonna go through and tag all my heathers au now with 'Rues Heathers AU' so you should be able to find stuff ive done in the past from them, and stuff i will continue to make ;)

He or she pronouns are fine for Dust here, cus i couldnt really decide if i wanted to genderbend everyone to match the genders of the characters or not, so up to you really, both, one or the other, whatever lol

Pestilence is a bit more complicated; from my Four Horsemen Au - where Nightmare, Dust, Killer and Horror take the roles of the four horsemen, who are said to appear at the end of the humanity, and bring about the apocalypse and all that, from christian texts

Pestilance actually has a redesign since i made him, because hes one of my older things, so:

The first horseman, with a bow and crown, rides a white horse - Dust - Pestilence/Conquest

His crown is made of thorns and branches, jesus style, with melting candles dripping wax slowly; its said when the candles fully melt and the flames burn out, humanity is no more.

The actual 'crown' part of his crown are pitch black metal, and are shaped like arrows

The white sheet covers his face, the way you do to dead people - you do not want to end up seeing his face, because you wont see anything after it if you do ;)

he is constantly in a state of dusting - never fully committing to it,

His hands and body are covered and stained in monster dust and human blood, stains that can never be washed out

he is in a perpetual state of dusting, never really committing either way, just..constantly decaying

He constantly has this green illness liquid dripping from his eyes and mouth - its poison.

His arrows are all poison tipped as well

His bow and fletch are summonable, and attach to his belt easily - he can summon and de-summon them at will.

His horse - which i didnt draw because fuck that - is activly rotting and decaying, bones and rotting flesh making up its body. its a white horse, obviously, with voidless black eyes

both he and the horse trail dust everywhere, disease laying in the powder

the illness that he causes can be physical sickness, and it can be mental sickness, basically anything you count as ' being unwell' he can cause

hes a bit kooky really, he screams and cries and laughs a lot more than he actually talks but he is capable of it, hes just quiet and ominous really, and theres this lingering presence of illness and threat around him. like his space, which is ironic, because illness festers in crowded spaces, its where he thrives.

"i will cough on you if you do not leave me alone."

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Yan!Twst scenarios where Mc delete's the app, featurin' Azul & Malleus

Which is which 1 & 2 and mending hearts: -> (1), (2), (3)

Feeling Sickly

Mc got sick Trey and Ruggie takes care of them

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Two lovers never meant for each other Lilia x Mc

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Strange messages...

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A tale of a hunter searching for love, who met a fairy in the woods

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Their Final Waltz (request!! Riddle x reader)

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Love can hurt sometimes (request!! Silver x reader)

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Self-aware AU .02

Loneliness at it's best

Where fem!Mc is lonely and only has the twst game to comfort them.

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First Love

He met her and fell for her, his heart beats aloud and it's pretty nice he loves it..no- he loves her. (Malleus x Yurika || Malleus POV)

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last updated: 24/27/2023

[sergeifyodorov]

I just reread strange trails and I'd love to know your inspirations for it! Your ideas behind the worldbuilding, the genesis of the plot, all that good stuff if you'd like to share!

the backstory

im a college student and was unemployed all summer. in order to pass the time while waiting for local jobs to reject me i started a crochet project. throughout pretty much the entire month of june. and possibly also may. i would make my squares and listen to the strange trails album. straight through. every day. i may have gone a little bit insane.

but it's okay. i'm already insane.

lord huron (the band who made the album) has like. lore. am i familiar with this lore? no i am not. am i aware nonetheless that there is lore? yes absolutely. if you listen to their discography there's definitely lore -- recurring themes (resurrection, adventuring, magical seductive women, etc), motifs (depends on the album but strange trails is big on flowers, trees, snow, although there is one song that's set in the desert), characters (they keep mentioning a guy called the world ender.) anyHway the point of all of this is that the music is [solid 7.5 out of 10 but it scratches my exact brain itches] and very evocative of the imagery and idea of a deeper world. my favourite off the album (and one of my favourites in the discography) is la belle fleur sauvage, which tells the listener about a long perilous quest for some mythical thing (a flower. also a woman. metaphor), although one of the ones whose imagery i enjoyed the most is frozen pines, which is a little less concrete but invokes images of cold, the side of a mountain, strange happenings, etc.

the idea

those songs are definitely the most direct inspiration for it but unfortunately my process for developing ideas is kind of terrible because it involves less "sitting down and coming up with stuff" and more "wait for a 60% formed idea to smack you upside the head like rapunzel in tangled and her cast-iron frying pan." which quinn and his sad little corpse did.

if you go back far enough in the quinnfic tag on my blog u can see the post right after it Happened. the idea was literally "quinn hughes carries a corpse up a mountain, and horror."

so i take this little piece of grit from which my pearl of questionable moral integrity will be built and i ask it questions. first off: quinn, why are you on that mountain? who is the corpse? is anyone else with you? soon enough petey decided to join him (although quinn is and was always the protagonist/pov character). the body was The Ghost Of Vancouver before it was brock over top of that.

another inspiration, which i realize i'm leaving out, is this

this is artist grayson perry's work "hold your beliefs lightly" from tomb of the unknown craftsman, and this image of a long perilous upward journey towards some sacred place really combined together with la belle fleur sauvage to form the base idea of the world for the work.

and of course why would you carry a corpse up a mountain to some sacred place if you couldn't resurrect it at the end?

quinn

im big on metaphor. if i'm writing something long it has to have a Point to it, some larger theme than romance and stuff (this is mostly because i'm bad at writing romance)(and also big on curses and the like.) and also because quinn hughes asexual barb i never fucked/i never fucked/all my life man, fucks sake. this was also being written right before the peak of Canucks Captaincy Debate, and in our hearts didn't we all know quinn was going to be the one to wear the c?

so it became pretty clear pretty quick that as well as my attempt at writing horror that this was going to be a quinn character study -- and this is where i should talk about my other fic scheherazade.

in scheherazade, auston actually doesn't make a lot of choices -- he tags along, arguing with the narrator/bill, and only starts to take an active role in the way the story is going near the end, when he finally gets sick of it all. quinn, however, is not at all the same kind of person as auston. he's less artistic and more practical; an older brother instead of a younger one; jewish; not nearly so squeamish. he takes an active role in the story from the very beginning, showing up to the base of the mountain with his pack full, both prepared and not for what lies ahead.

the mountain

vancouver is smack in the middle of the north shore mountains, so there's a million hiking trails about, but the one i can most easily think of (as someone who hasn't been to vancouver in several years) is the grouse grind trail, a popular and fairly short trail that the canucks prospects actually do every year, so i knew quinn and petey (both vancouver draftees) would be familiar. i've never actually done the grouse grind, which was part of the reason i decided to kind of. toy with reality. you can't call me out on inaccuracy when it's Not Real On Purpose (although the sign at the 1/4 mark is copied directly from photos i've seen.)

petey and the plot

once i added petey, i knew i'd have to get rid of him -- a lot of the scene ideas were quinn-only, and petey's way too sarcastic and useless (AFFECTIONATE) to engage seriously with the ideas presented to him like quinn would and did. so i needed to divide them up.

the original plot idea from the outline is actually pretty similar up until the end of chapter 6 (the conversation w the ghost), but it differs in a few crucial ways -- one, quinn breaks down again, crying and everything, and two, he actually does go through with the resurrection instead of using his wish to get petey down the mountain safely. i realized around then that this wouldn't work with the quinn i'd created, especially after his argument with the ghost: he's far less focused on glory than stability, less interested in the cup or his contract and more interested in the safe long bet than high rolling. in a cold, wet environment like the mountain it's a lot easier to get hypothermia without noticing than it is in a dry environment, even if the dry environment is several degrees colder than the wet one. and quinn would know that, having seen petey's thin little sweater and knowing his stubborn ass is going to freeze.

so after that it became about hypothermia. i actually had a bit of a writing pause after this because i knew i was going off-outline, so i had to kind of inch ahead until i knew where i was going. but i'm happy with how it turned out!

[midnightfire830]

How did the group meet??, how do they interact with eachother??, how many performances have they done??,what type of music do they write???,what timeline is it in this au??,does Holly exist???,what does cuphead and mugmans parents think about them being in a band??, so they enjoy being in a band???, I gotta keep it short Bcus I’m at my bus stop srry, also I’ll finish the lore thing but u started school again Bcus I was sick so it might take me a bit😭😭

Interactions are kinda the same as canon IM. Sometimes the band honestly sees eachother as brothers. Boris being the little brother and Cup the older. Bendy and Cup tease eachother a lot. Mugman and Boris are just really sweet friends. Each takes a certain role in making their songs and that’s kind of a different thing.

I’m not sure how many performances they’ve done but I know it’s a lot. They’ve done a tour or two. They do specifically Pop/Punk rock. The main songs I have in my AU playlists are by Set it Off, Panic! At the Disco, Jhariah, Bear Ghost, and Ethan Gander.

This AU is set in modern times 2020s.

Holly does exist. Cuphead and Holly met in college at Yen Sid University and were pretty good friends. Years later when he started his band he recommended Holly to his band manager and she was hired as a special effects director. Using a combo of rune magic and tech (with the help of Bendy, Boris, and Dr. Flug) to have cool exciting performances. She also work with Alice and Cala in wardrobe sometimes specifically with styling hair. Tho that really only applies to Cuphead and Mugman lol.

Cuphead and Mugman never met their parents. So they have no idea what they think.

Everyone absolutely loves being in this band. It’s so much fun to make, record, and perform songs with their best friends and idols. For some being in the band is one of the ways they feel comfortable and safe, if that makes sense.

Have fun at school!

And thanks for the ask!

[sneakyscarab]

touhou 19 time! this game was literally not even released when i started this, so this is really fresh! this post is probably the closest i will ever be to a real games journalist lol.

nina's thoughts on Touhou 19 - Unfinished Dream of All Living Ghost

the most recent touhou, coming out just a few weeks ago, so this review is hot off the presses! UDoALG (wild abbreviation by the way, this name is so long) is a pretty neat game, being a direct sequel to Wily Beast and Weakest Creature story-wise, and a sequel to Phantasmagoria of Flower View gameplay-wise.

UDoALG is another in the competitive-danmaku type gameplay, similar to PoFV but with a number of evolutions to make the gameplay more balanced and easier to control. i won't go over every little change, since theres quite a lot, but ill point out some interesting changes, mostly in relation to story mode. for starters, Ability Cards are back again from UM, although with a much smaller role. each character has 2 cards themed to them, and whenever you beat an opponent in story mode you're randomly given one of their two cards. the three animal spirits are added, but they work completely differently to WBaWC, now being stronger variants of the generic spirit enemies from PoFV. a change that i think is only in story mode is that a new win condition is added, where if you defeat your opponent's boss summon an amount of times then your opponent loses. this is also pretty much the only wincon in story mode, since the AI has insane dodging skills. i literally only saw them lose a life one (1) time across 19 characters' stories (if you're curious, it was in Chiyari's stage 1).

one really interesting aspect of this game is the storytelling. i usually don't bring up the story in these posts outside of how certain characters relate to it, the story usually is a fairly simple affair that just gives the characters a reason to fight, but UDoALG has a much more complex story, which im kinda mixed on. i'll start with the cool part: the story actually progresses as you play through and unlock various characters in story mode, every set of character unlocks represents a later time period of the story, so you don't get the full story and resolution until you play through it all. this is a super cool idea, and gives good incentive to keep playing different routes and see how it all plays out. its a cool idea that uniquely plays off of the large character roster and unlocking method of these competitive vs games.

unfortunately, in order to make this happen and make every character be relevant, the plot is needlessly convuluted, especially in the first couple campaigns. there are so many factions at play, all with their own motives and double-agents and subterfuge. by the end of the 19 story scenarios you will be absolutely sick of the phrase "this is exactly as i had planned", and yet i still dont fully understand What the "main villain"s plan was. i commend ZUN for trying something new with the narrative, both in doing a direct sequel with most of the same characters as a former game, as well as this way of unfolding the story over time through different character routes, but i can't say it was Good. maybe im just biased since it mostly revolves around the WBaWC cast, and that game already had pretty rough plot and characterization, but i dunno. i will say i liked the story more at the end than i did after doing the first couple routes, but some of that early confusion never really goes away, and characters like Ran and Tsukasa dont really get their stories resolved.

time to talk about the characters! UDoALG is furry city, pretty much every character besides the human incident resolvers is some kind of animal-person, plus a few Onis. for returning characters we have Reimu, Marisa, Sanae, Ran (from PCB), Aunn (HSiFS), Nazrin (UFO), Seiran (LoLK), Rin (SA), Tsukasa (UM), Mamizou (TD), Yachie (WBaWC), Saki (WBaWC), Yuuma (the 3rd Animal Realm leader, coming from a fighting game i think?), and Suika (also a fighting game, and SA). for the new characters, we have 3 new youkai who have each joined one of the animal realm families respectively, plus the 'main villain' Zanmu and her assistant Hisami. since theres only 5 new guys, ill just give them each a quick review.

Son Biten is a monkey youkai, based on Son Wukong, recruited to Yachie's Kiketsu family. she's pretty goofy, and has a really neat musical theme. i dont have much to say about her, besides that she has a cool inspiration, and some of her interactions are pretty funny.

Enoko is a dog-type youkai, loosely based on the idea of Cerberus, who was recruited to Saki's Keiga family. instead of literally having 3 heads, she has bear traps on her wrists that act as analogues to the jaws of two additional heads, which is a really neat interpretation of a cerberus concept, as well as having tons of comedic potential. i love all the jokes people make about her offering up a Totally Normal Handshake, dont worry about it. she apparently lived in the Forest of Magic as a dog before awakening as a youkai, so she joins the crew of Marisa's funny forest friends.

the third new Youkai is Chiyari, who is NOT a chupacabra, despite what everyone says. she's based on a Tenkajin, which is apparently an obscure youkai that sucks blood, obscure enough that i could only find a single source for it online, being a Japanese blog post written by who i assume is a youkai enthusiast. Anyways, nobody in Gensokyo knows what a tenkajin is either, so everyone calls her a chupacabra instead since its another bloodsucking creature who is 'pretty popular right now'. most of her interactions are her being annoyed by being called a chupacabra, and eventually coming to terms with it. poor tenkajin gets no respect. shes very funny, and also apparently completely broken in pvp. great character.

Hisami is a 'guide of Hell', who is also inexplicably based on grapes for some reason (or eggplants, depending on who you ask, but im in grapes camp.) she pretty much just finds people in hell and helps them find their destination, although 'their destination' is up to Hisami's interpretation, and multiple times in the story she leads characters somewhere else. apparently she does her job wrong because she wants Zanmu to notice her, and it doesn't work cause apparently that was part of Zanmu's plan all along, so she doesn't care. Zanmu is too busy playing 4d chess to give her suboordinate some attention, so sad.

speaking of, Zanmu is an Oni, and the 'main villain' of the game. i say that with quotes because, despite being the final boss in most routes, and being the chessmaster supposedly laying out the big plans and manipulating everyone, she also is simultaneously resolving the incident, kinda?? its a bit hard to understand her motivations. well i guess her motivations make sense, but its hard to understand how exactly she plans to get what she wants from this plan. like her plan involves getting beat up by Reimu multiple times? hello?? not a fan, and she doesn't even have a cool design inspiration to make up for it, shes just another oni.

alright, lets wrap this one up. i was surprised to see another VS type game come out, and it seems to deliver a lot more balanced and interesting combat than the first one (granted, story mode plays pretty differently from what i can tell). the story is weird though, and the roster doesn't really have many characters i'm excited to play as compared to PoFV, and the characters i do like are pretty bad. (Sanae in particular is really weak in this format, her homing snakes are a huge disadvantage against bosses since they turn as soon as they see an enemy, meaning they wont hit the boss unless every random spirit or fairy is dead first). complaints aside though, at the base level its still pretty fun, and im glad that this type of gameplay is being given another chance.

i said it in my PoFV review, and ill say it again here: if any of you reading this have UDoALG, and are interested in playing the PvP with me, hit me up! itd be fun to try playing this with another person (although i heard the online is rough so i dunno…)

thank you so much for reading, especially those of you that have stuck with me through each post! this is the end of the mainline series, but there's still a lot out there i havent done. im not sure where this will go from here, especially since my college semester just started so i'll have a lot less free time, but ive had a lot of fun working on this project, and i hope that youve had fun reading it! if i do keep going, i might do the PC-98 quintilogy next, or maybe talk about cool fangames like Luna Nights or Mystia's Izakaya, i dunno. whatever comes next though, i hope to see you again! consider this the end of 'volume 1' of my grimoire. farewell!

[ahaura]

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"what'd you do with my ear, shipman?" says the ghost/hallucination of shauna's best friend <3

i KNOW that they're doing the cannibal gaze w shauna but also it's gay. so.

taissa keeping the others from eating shauna's share <3 <3

"you only had sex with him imagine being me" dont you mean kissing jeff was ALMOST like kissing jackie because jackie was the last one to kiss jeff....

"it's not what you're hungry for" CANNIBAL TIME LETS GOOOOOOOOOO

GHOST JACKIE CUTTING HER OWN FLESH OFF THE BONE FOR SHAUNA TO EAT IM ABOUT TO MCLOSE IT

i really do like that lottie copes with the past by putting on layers of bullshit but underneath all those layers is the girl in the antler mask/headdress i want to SEE the silhouette is so. SO much

also i really really REALLY hope that creepy dude that taissa sees makes a return i want to see her struggle with her place within the fairytale and within the confines of fairytale logic its so insane on the plane that she's operating on

"my mom wants to know if you want chocolate chip pancakes" "no we dont because im breaking up with you" yellowjackets is a comedy <3

TAISSA TRAILING THE REAPER WHILE SLEEPWALKING HER REPRESSED/SUPPRESSED SELF COMING TO THE SURFACE AND SEEKING ANSWERS WHILE HER CONSCIOUS MIND BURIES IT IN DAYLIGHT HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOO

ok but was the reaper leading taissa off the cliff? is her suppressing her true self/the self that belongs within the fairytale urging her to "wake up?" is the forest/fairy tale setting punishing her for not getting in? i need to knowwwwwwww

taissa SHUTTING down even remotely discussing whats happening to her w lottie her Opponent in the forest the one who has embraced her role within fairytale logic vs. taissa who refuses and clings to "logic" and "what's real" instead of letting go and entering into the Self or the Space that Wants her to

taissa after almost walking off a cliff while asleep: "yeah im going to continue repressing these things and not talking about them this is obviously going well for me already"

THAT TRANSITION FUCKS

ALSO IS THAT MASSIVE ATTACK because a movie i watched the other night LITERALLY had the same song im DYINGGGGGG

INERTIA CREEP, BABYYYYYYYYYYYY

natalie in the same camp as taissa "seeing's believing" wherein travis is open to embracing the fairytale aspect and natalie is firmly rooted within the confines she's used to and cannot stand another way because letting go means accepting that you do not know and being vulnerable and it's scary and there's no control there etc etc

misty posting on forums is so funny

YESSSSS CONFRONTATION OVER SHAUNA COPING HORRIBLY OVER JACKIE'S DEATH LETS GOOOOOOOOOOO

i love both taissa and lottie in this bec both are like "we care about shauna" but are so deeply rooted in different places that they come at it like enemies its so fun

I LOVE CONFRONTATION AND DRAMA <3

ADAM CONSEQUENCES CLOSING IN?

CALLIE SAVING HER MOM FROM POLICE QUESTIONING? OK OK OK OK OK OK

"so you lied to be feminist" SAY IT WITH ME! GASLIGHT GIRLBOSS GATEKEEP!

ELIJAH WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD LETS GO LETS FUCKING GO

NATALIE NOOOOOOOOOOOOO DONT DO IT i understand why but DONT YOU DO IT NOOOOOOOOOOOO AS IF YOU NEED MORE STRIFE BETWEEN YOU AND TRAVIS (I love drama)

surely this wont have consequences at a later date :) surely not?

FINALLLY some travis progress

oh my god thats so fucking up...

im with nat on this. whats the underneath. spill!!!!!!

OH MY FUCKING GOD????????????

I WONT LIE THAT SHIT IS SO SCARY IM SO INTO IT LETS GOOOOOOOOO

um. ok. uh. -

STEP AWAY FROM THE 36YO MAN CALLIE

stooooooooooop callie STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

gay eulogy time!

TAISSA AND LOTTIE FLANKING SHAUNA AS JACKIE BURNS TO A CRISP LETS GO GIRLS!!!!!

loving putting sick in forensics guy hes wonderful finally misty gets her own weirdo bestie

OH MY GOD MUSTACHE IS A COP? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

is travis hallucinating lottie... while he and nat are... wow ok

DID THE WOODS STOP JACKIE'S BODY FROM BURNING THATS SO FUNNY. the woods are like "alright she's been barbecued enough you WILL be turned into cannibals"

w h o o p s

THE CANNIBALISM IS HAPPENINGGGGGGGGGG

something something remember when persophne ate the seeds and she couldnt go back or something idk but they have Crossed A Line and im READY for it

coach is SO next on the menu

WELL THAT WAS CERTAINLY AN EPISODE

[little-puku]

aaaaa i fell asleep before i realised you’re doing the ask meme too!! if you’re still taking them perhaps…. 💀🤡🍷💬 for Kaede and Gabi?

💀 - How do they feel about horror movies?

Kaede

He gets a lil scared but knows movies are another way of art so he knows they are not real, he enjoys the effects, all the effect they put into them and all that. Not his first choose when it comes to movies but he will gladly discuss about what happened, how they couod have survived and so on. He has been in more treating experiences with real life Ghost Pokémon tho

Gabi

My man here... oh boy Gabi might be tough but when it comes to movies or hunted houses... nop... he will try them out if you enjoy that, ok fine he will do it but have for sure he will scream, jump from the jump scares or pick you up and run away (not today bitch i wont die here!), hold him. Hold this man he will close his eyes and be "WHYYYYY! THERE IS SO MUCH BLOOOOD!!!" And hug you. You will get a laugh if you enjoy his suffering haha "why you do this to me?! My heart bruh... i cant... i need something cute in my life right now ya know?!?! Damn it!"

🤡 - What’s something dumb they’re embarrassed about?

Kaede

Kaede sometimes tends to be waaaay to focus on things so many embarrassed moment have happened to him, mostly by accident... But the most embarrassing is that one time at the "National Park" in Johto, he went to sketch some bug Pokémon to practice, that day also was "The Bug Catching Contest".... so many people were around... the thing is he doesn't know how or what happened but he thinks someone made a swarm of Beedrils get upset... the person was running away and for his luck... the swarm was comming to his direction... so my man had to run! On trying to get away he trip over the fountain and he fall down inside... so after the chaos... you can see a skinny all wet noodle man comming out of the fountain, he lose a shoe that day... people were lauging... his sketchbook was ruined, his Smeargle was crying because used to wrong move to protect him... and one of his legs was paralized because of the Beedrill's sting... so he had to do a "walk of shame" to his home, dripping water all the way back.... everytime he returns at the park they reminder him of that incident "hey wet noodle!! Glad to have you back!" He is fine now he just accept it but if someone new ask why he is called that he will be embarrassed thats for sure but he will try to change topic before someone else come over and tell you about the story...

Gabi

Back im the school days, he was part of the "drama club" he did scenography, no acting... but one day the lead paper was open, because the girl that had to play it was sick... so they needed to have someone else... the problem was that only the scenography team was avaible, sice all the girls (4 girls) where with personal problems, had another role or sick.... so they pick up Gabi... he had to be a princess, that fine he has wear dresses before because of his sister that enjoys playing magcal girl stuff.

He memorize the lines, learned how to act and all that. The day of the presentation there was a scene where a fan must be use since there was a storm... but due to "malfuction" (but Gabi believes was intentional! Someone set him up!!) soooo you can imagine what happened... his dress blows upwards, revealing his undergarments (he had his "detective pikachu" boxers tho but still!) He thought was safe, that no one saw him! He put the dress down back to his place quickly right?!... wrong!... sadly the classmates and the parentd that where watching the drama show... were also recording and they got it all... the video is online.... some have seen it... but he did all he could to get that video down... he didnt come out of his room for weeks!!!..... if you search around maybe you can still find the video... just dont bring it up he will be a red mess and pout around to why you have to seen such thing!! He will be so embarrassed he will scream and deny it "NOOOOO! YOU HAVENT SEEN ANYTHING THERE IS NO SUCH THING BRUH SHUT UP! SHUUUUUUUT UP NO NO MY MAN NO THATS NOT TRUE! WHAT YOU SAW THATS FAKE! A MONTAGE! THATS NOT ME!! NA AH NOP NOT AT ALL NOT ME!!!"

🍷- How do they feel about alcohol?

Kaede

Not his first choose when it comes to drinking, if you are drunk have for sure he will take care of you, bath you and give you hot soup the next day for you not to have a huge headache

But dont let this man near "Pinap Coladas" this man loves them and he will drink a lot of them! The thing is, Kaede drunk is way more extrovert than the introvert he usually is... just dont make him drunk! He becomes this clingy cuddly man that always want to hug you (he is basically a Komala next to you) if you push him away he is a crying mess, if he is alone he is also a crying mess but naked.... he just walks around naked drunk in the house, wishing to be near you how wonderful you are a full declaration of love and passion! Later for him to colapse and fall sleep

Gabi

Drinking is not his first choose yeah you have some or got invited to a party, he will drink a few but if you have Boba tea Oh boy! Thats his jam!!

If you are drunk he will be really upset!! he just doesnt like dealing with drunk people, nor want to see you drunk and vulnerable, if you get drunk you better be in a safe place with people you trust! Many bad things could happend... but if it is you yeah he will take care of you will make sure you are hydrated if you are not near him he will go pick you up

If Gabi is drunk he usually is the quite drunk he just sit there grumpy staring at nothing, focusing more in keep balance and not falling. In this moment you can ask me whatever you want and he will reply, not remembering what he has said

💬 - What are some filler/buffer words they use? (Like, um, etc.)

Kaede

He use: Like, but, i-i, Iiiiih!, Ummmm, anyway!!

Gabi

For Gabi are: Yeah, ya know, um, hmmm, yep, nop, naaaaa, if you want

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I want to hear more about your version of season 3 of HSMTMTS with the changes you made.

everything is the same except famed internet white man wayneradiotv is there just kind of hanging out /j

im just gonna list the things that are different cause a fair amount of things are the same, and i already explained most of what i would change for Carlos and Kourtney, so this is mostly going to be explaining what I changed for Nini, Lily, Seb, Big Red, and what takes the place of the love triangle i eradicated.

3x01: Nini and Lily are at camp and Nini is gay panicking about Gina, as they've become a lot closer since beauty and the beast and she started working with Jamie. Lily is at camp as well and is putting on a very saccharine sweet performance with Maddox but the other four girls are just soooooo over her bs. none of them were expecting her to be there, even Ricky is surprised lol. so during the opening Rily and Portwell are being all coupley and Carlos, Kourtney, Ashlyn, and Nini are hashtag over it. there are sneaky hints about a Maddox-Madison-Nini love triangle from the past few years that never actually gets explained until later. also there's a scene at the end where Seb and Big Red are playing video games in Red's basement and overall just being very cute.

3x02: Nini is having a chill ass morning by the lake and Maddox finds her working on a song. Nini tells Maddox she was invited to work on an ep with Jamie in LA but that she left her friends behind once for YAC and doesn't want to risk doing that again and it being the wrong choice, but Maddox is like "girl it's two weeks you'll see your friends again in the fall" and at some point in this episode she sings You Never Know. I think everything else in this ep is pretty much the same. Interspersed scenes of Big Red trying to teach Seb how to skateboard and failing miserably.

3x03: The Frozen cast list comes out: Gina is Anna, Kourtney is Elsa, Jet is Kristoff, Carlos is Hans, Ricky is Olaf, and Nini, Ashlyn, and Lily in various ensemble roles. One of Nini's roles is as the Queen (that's important later). Jet and Ricky go on a Just Bros Bonding Adventure because Ricky is pointedly avoiding Lily and Jet is pointedly avoiding Maddox. When EJ won't go to the shrine, Gina takes Nini to find it so she can ask why Nini's been acting so weird around her lately. When Nini won't say anything cause she's still not sure herself, so she finds Kourtney and tells her (and Carlos cause he just happens to be there and he clocks her almost immediately) everything that's going on. Also, Big Red and Seb break into East High and find a ghost.

3x04: So since Jet is Kristoff this time around, when he disappears and EJ fills in for him, he and Gina do WDYKAL. When Jet comes back, he bumps into Nini preparing to leave, and the two have a very weird moment. Jet returns and Val tells him to clean up his act, and he passes Gina on his way into the movie. Gina goes to ask if they can watch Camp Rock, and sees Nini getting the last of her things. Confronting her, Nini reveals she's leaving to work with Jamie and that she can't stay at camp while she's so confused. Gina is lost and Nini tries her best to say what she's feeling without actually up and saying it, y'know? but Gina is way smarter than anyone likes to give her credit for ofc and says she wishes Nini didn't feel like she has to run away from herself. Cue, you guessed it, GINI GOTTA GO MY OWN WAY!!!! Oh, and Big Red and Seb begin investigating who could be haunting East.

3x05: So after Nini leaves, Lily is bumped up to the role of the Queen, and she continues to suck up to Kourtney and in trying to make them trust each other, she reveals that she stole Ricky's beast harness. In rehearsal, Gina and Carlos do LIAOD, but Carlos starts to feel sick and he ignores both Ricky and Gina asking him what's wrong. Gina expresses to Kourtney that the people she cares about the most (EJ, Carlos, Nini) keep ignoring her genuine concern, and the two bond. Kourtney sings "Monster" in rehearsal and then runs off, with Ricky running after her, and the two reconcile, while Gina goes after Carlos and says that she's not gonna force him to tell her what's going on but that she is there for him should he need it. Kourtney tells Ricky that Lily stole his harness, and he breaks up with her. That night, it's not an official campfire, but the Wildcats make one of their own and sing "This is Our Song" together. Meanwhile, Seb and Big Red plan a stakeout at EHS.

3x06: Mainly keeping the same plot as the original RCOSL episode, but instead of WDYKAL it's Carlos doing "Hans of the Southern Isles" and then he almost runs away again but then he just goes and sits with his friends and is like. Scarily quiet. We see him stretching a lot. And Seb and Big Red lock themselves in the bomb shelter and FaceTime Nini, who is working on her music in LA still, and get her onboard with the idea that East is haunted.

3x07: The color war is largely the same as it was before, with the addition of Lily being there and making fun of Kourtney for not wanting to climb the wall but then everyone else just shoots her the DARKEST look and she shuts up. Seb and Big Red are discovered by Mr. Mazzara, who reveals he's been working on stuff all summer and the noises they heard were probably just him. He kicks them out, but then hears the noises for himself.

3x08: Maddox wants to take pity on Lily, but the other girls, having adopted Maddox already, insist that she's nothing but trouble. Carlos is much more standoffish, even when Seb arrives, and the looming inevitability of the water bucket tradition keeps him from really enjoying their night. We get a genuine cover of "Wouldn't Change A Thing" from Seblos, rather than the weird disco quartet with Jet and Maddox. Jet and Maddox sing a different song that's much more appropriate for siblings. The Portwell breakup unfortunately still happens, but it's more mutual, and there is no third party involved. Ricky's post-Lily time is spent being determined to have a hashtag free and fun summer and helping Jet with all his schemes, completely ignoring any romantic feelings he might be having for anyone because he's single and free and that's totally gonna make the feelings go away, right? At the end of the episode Carlos tells EJ he doesn't want to do the tradition, and he's not ready for it.

3x09: Miss Jenn, Nini, Big Red, and Seb are all there for opening night and the three kids celebrate Ricky's birthday and definitely aren't worried about a ghost, what are you talking about? The episode is largely the same, with the change of Ricky being the one to sing In Summer and still being on his "I'M FINE THERE IS NOTHIGN WRONG" bit that everyone kind of sees right through but especially his besties.

3x10: We get the second half of the performance, including Jet singing Kristoff's Lullaby and looking dramatically over at Kourtney. Nini starts to tell Gina her true feelings, but Gina is whisked away before she can reply, and the cast sings "Everyday" together.

At the premiere a month later, EJ tells everyone that he's not being forced to go to St. Louis and is going to a school further out in Utah, but still doesn't think anyone actually cares about that or him at all. The Jetney and Madlyn confessions still play out, and Jet and Maddox panic over it. Gina is upset that EJ and Val were edited to be romantically involved, when the breakup wasn't really about that, and also that Nini has been radio silent since the performance and she went back to LA. Carlos is mortified that his debilitating body/eating issues have been manipulated to make it look like he was cheating. Ricky wants to comfort all of his friends, but his facade is starting to crack, so instead of chasing after any of them, he just sits alone onstage in confusion.

[night-dark-woods]

Gimme 9 for the OC ask game for either creature! Or both!!

9. Is your OC laid back or do they thrive on drama? What role do they play in their group of friends/associates?

ooh i feel like both of them cause drama but extremely not on purpose.

Fuller is the topic of many arguments btwn Aunor and Ikora, but she a) doesn't know that b) wouldn't particularly care if she did, unless it started curtailing her ability to Do Research. she knows Aunor dislikes her, and knows she is on her shitlist by the constant parade of chaperones/potential assassins that each handle about a month in the Hellmouth with Fuller before begging for reassignment lmfao, but it's not a point of pride for her or anything, she just kind of starts from the assumption that Nobody Understands Her Genius (crimes against humanity and nature), and so if someone doesn't come out of the gate disliking her it's a rare occurrence. she doesn't really respect anyone enough to care about what other people think even enough to like... contrarily get joy out of messing with people (until she starts caring about what Hapax thinks of her!!! uh oh!!! girl who has never experienced meaningful rejection or wanting to change her behavior because of the way it affects someone else about to have her world turned upside down!!! i think at some point she manages to genuinely piss Hapax off/hurt her enough that Hapax like, Leaves for a while. and Fuller is like. what is this horrible sensation. am i sick. should i kill myself. (its guilt))

the only other people who she really hangs out with (pre-Hapax) are her ghost Celadon (happy enabler and credited co-author on her (unpublished) papers) and Toland, who finds Fuller to be the most annoying motherfucker on the planet and thinks she does not regard the Sword Logic (or him) with the reverence it is due. i think she and Eris have probably talked but im not sure what their relationship looks like. probably equal amounts of appreciation from Eris for the Hive-torture, and discomfort with how much Fuller wants to see her Hive eyes lmfao.

as for Hapax, i don't think she causes Drama per se, but she just. Does Not Fit In with the corsairs to the point where complaints make their way to Mara, which is the catalyst for Hapax ending up assigned to babysit Fuller in the first place.

Schiller is like. much much more normal/sociable than her guardian, and kind of regards Hapax the way you would regard your younger sibling who just CANNOT make friends, and so you try to facilitate playdates or let them hang out with your own friends, but it just doesn't work out. she loves Hapax and wants her to be happy but the problem is Hapax just reads like a slightly pissed off blank wall to the vast majority of people. except Fuller. which sucks for Schiller bc Schiller has a normal moral compass and hates the fucking Hellmouth, but also this is the first time she's seen Hapax bond with ANYONE. so now she's stuck in the haunted caves of Luna watching her charge form an inseparable bond with the worlds most annoying mad scientist.

ik we've talked about Strand and Hapax hanging out and i think it would be fun if they interact Before Hapax gets assigned to the Moon and then after (maybe SotHunt? i imagine in the face of that Ikora might let Fuller's leash a little looser tbh, all hands on deck, even creepy ones, to deal with the Wrathborn. though also timeline-wise that'd be a quick turnaround. maybe sotLost.) and Strand gets to see Hapax out of her shell a little bit. and also gets to see Fuller and be like Jesus Fucking Christ why this one.

[fataleefemmee]

holy shit

holy shit am i trying to keep it the fuck together right now. between work, dating, being alone, feeling alone.. sometimes this shit gets hard man. i work 90 fucking hours a week, im miserable 85% of the time im here, i just feel like im slowly losing my fucking mind sitting at my desk all day, dialing leads, talking to people who are rejecting me. its this never ending cycle of talking, getting hung up on, getting people to maybe want the plans, then ghosting me at the last second. im putting all this stress on me because last year i was that fucking girl, that boss bitty, and this year i sucked ass because my ex fucked everything up for me work-wise. its just insane. ontop of all that it sucks knowing i was such a good fucking girlfriend, i did everything for him, i supported him, i did everything all for him to shit on me and make me lose a huge part of myself and then fail at work, he set me back but can i even blame him or blame myself for putting up with it for as long as i did.

i enjoy being by myself and playing to my own tune but like fuck do i wish i could have someone to lift me up. then there is him and im starting to like him and have some sort of feeling sbut i am being so closed off because i do not want to get hurt and i dont even know if i want to be in the girlfriend role right now. im obsessed with wanting someone to want me but then i feel so alone, like so alone. it ry to express my feelings and myself to my friends and my family but then im told by everyone all these opinions that just make me feel like shit which is so insane because i actually feel happy when i talk about him yet everyone fucking judges me. im so sick of everyones words man. this is why im so closed off and i dont tell anyone anything and i rather just be private about it, but being private about a person who makes me feel something, like actually feel something, fucking sucks.

i could just be overtired right now, which makes the most sense but im in this rut of feeling like all i really have is myself... im constantly disappointed by people, no one puts a smile on my face the way i put a smile on their face... i rather live in solitude than express myself or my feelings lol.., how sad is that? im such a happy go lucky person, the second i stop laughing or smiling at people they make me feel like shit for it, they call me moody, they call me a bitch.. like i cant fucking win, i cant fucking please everyone AND please myself. i dont even know why the fuck i care, why do i care?

im about to book a one way ticket far away just me and atlas and forget everyone and eveyrthing. i cant take it, i cant take the disappointment, i cant take the judgment, i cant take NO ONE being happy for me legit ever, its always something, everyone always has something to say. the most insane part about all this is that no one fucking ever checks in on me, like ever, yet i check in on them all the fucking time. no one ever reaches out to me, yet they all notice when im in a bad moood... isnt that something? I went through a break up with an abusive piece of shit, everyone knew about it, and NO ONE fucking reached out lol, and people are still fucking friends with him.

like my own dad man, my own fucking dad after the shit he pulled, supporting my exs like its his job... im trying so hard not to spiral and go back to therapy but fucking a sometimes i feel like im gonna blow my brains out, its wild to me

one of the guys i was closest to in the office spreading non stop rumours about me saying my anxiety is fake like bro what are you saying...

im so over it, i thought if i didnt write this all down i was going to walk outside and keep walking with no direction but i decided to write and i know i jsut scrambled, i know none of it makes any sense i just need to type.

why the fuck do people suck so much lol its insane to me, i never treat people the way they treat me, if i was a fucking cunt like everyone else is then maybe people would respect me?